Food Diary

Shake with Banana, few ice cubes and a scoop of Almond butter

Morning Snack Orange with 12 Almonds

Lunch Chicken with Pearl pasta and Roasted Veggies. Looks like Alot of food.Only 310 Calories

Dinner Big Salad with Cajun Fish

We went to the International Music Festival today, The Festival was located in a 1800's village.

Classroom

Doctor's Office

Patience and Simplicity enjoyed watching the different cultures Dance. We had taken some video however my Internet is very slow today. Beautiful outfits. Although they had many sweet fried goodies there.

Patience had a Italian ice - and enjoyed it.

Food diary

Shake for Breakfast with one Banana and a tablespoon of almond butter

Morning snack apple with 12 almonds. It really looks boring that I eat the same thing almost everyday- apples and oranges are inexpensive. I have berries sometimes also. Anything natural become a awesome snack.

Lunch Roasted Turkey, squash medley, pureed broccoli. It is one of my favorites from Bistro Md. Like having Thanksgiving in June

Afternoon snack a hard boiled egg. Never go wrong with protein. -Ha ha this is Patience's toddler plate I saved it for sentimental reasons.- Hopefully able to use it again some day.

Dinner Big Salad with Jerk Spiced Fish.

I haven't done a puzzle in years, This isn't quite as pretty as I would have liked. But it is something we can do as a family. A friend gave me thought, I had forgotten all about puzzles.

Patience got her ears pierced today, we had always promised her when she was six she could. She will be six in a couple weeks. While we were at walmart getting the puzzle she remembered. :)

She was such a big girl about it.

Going for  the nightly family walk, we live in a rural area, so right around the corner from our small sub division it feels like the country. It is beautiful to go for our walks and see the cows ,horses, and goats.

Our dog Bella always goes with us on the walks, by the time we get back home Bella is ready for bed.

Couldn't resist this is Our Theme song to our Town. I really do enjoy the country life.http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ACQTddaIO2s

Food Diary

For Breakfast Banana Berry Shake. A nice sweet treat.
This morning we went to the market picked up our usual items

Banana's, Almonds, Broccoli, more water, Berries, Cherries,

Lettuce, Apples. Some of our everyday items we use every week. My trip to the market was less time- because we basically avoided all the junk food aisles.- There was no Momma can i have cookies and chips. The children are actually helping getting those things in the cart. Patience new snack she loves are fruit bars- no sugar added. Dr. G suggested it for her as a treat. Especially in the summer.- only 25 calories.

I feel so "Grown up" ....LOL at age 38 with my grocery items.
Jerry and I always laugh and say if Dr. Phil or Dr. G seen us shopping they would be so proud of the choices. :)

Patience has gotten in the habit of telling my father her Papa "You know Papa that isn't so good for you it is terrible for your health." - my father is a diabetic and loves sweets.

Morning Snack apple with about 12 almonds













Lunch was Moroccan style chicken with Lentil bean salad.- I thought I had taken a picture I believe it had gotten erased. The meal was 305 calories.

Afternoon snack protein bar. Yogurt berry. Only200 calories

Dinner Chicken Italian, Chickpea bean salad and mixed veggies the meal was 350 calories. I went for a 45 minute brisk walk and did the basic crunches and squats, worked on the exercise bike and burned 300 calories. And drank all 8 bottles of water. I have decided not to weigh everyday- going to weigh once a week. It is easy to become discouraged if the scale is staying the same. I have two weeks before we weigh in again for Dr. G. - Going to work very hard to get the numbers down.

I use this calorie calculator to help me keep track of how many calories I will burn. You think alot differently about what food choices to eat when you have to work to burn the calories. Instead of the protein bar it would have been better to chose a piece of fruit with almonds or almond butter for snack. I had to ride on the bike for 45 minutes to burn that off. The protein bar wasnt bad for me- next time I will chose fruit for the afternoon snack or tomatoe, or boiled egg.

http://www.pro health.com/weight loss/tools/exercise/calculator1_2.cfm

Feelings

Went to the doctor today had more bloodwork drawn- I have to contiue in two more weeks. I just want the testing to be done and over. Waiting for my Hcg levels to fall.- Very thankful for my husband Jerry and my three children.

Food Diary

This morning for Breakfast, Shake and Banana in the shake.

We speak to the nutritionist this evening so not sure if it will continue to be a shake. I have no problem with the shake- I remain full.

I wanted to share a photo of our nutritionist, he is a very down to earth guy. We really love what he has done for us. We call him DR. G.

Dr. G has been featured on CNN, Dr.Phil and he helps many of the Hollywood folks in Hollywood, Speaking with him weekly is just like speaking to a  Dear Friend. We will miss him when we have reached our goal weight.
http://www.pfcnutrition.com/

For Father's day I ordered Jerry Dr. G cookbook.( wondering if  I ordered it for myself also.) Looking forward to making cooking videos with the cookbook.

Apple for morning snack
I had forgotten I was supposed to eat almond butter with my fruit or 12 almonds. But it is OK, I ate a protein bar later in the day. It is better to eat protein with your fruit it helps the body to process the sugar better.

Lunch

Chicken breast, squash,sweet potato mix,with apples and pureed spinach

This meal was only 300 calories

This meal was only 260 calories salmon With roasted pepper puree served with quinoa.

And for evening snack I had protein bar before my walk.

 Dr G said next time we speak  on my diet he will do a ramp up- I suppose that means more restricted....lol. Jerry has been in food jail a couple times. And the food jail has him to lose 5-6 pounds weekly. With my effort in working out more I have lost two more pounds. Sometimes the weather can make you retain water if your not drinking enough. I have been drinking the 8 bottles daily. My calorie intake has been 1000-1200 daily. Depending on which meals I chose. Protein works best for our family.

Also Patience and Jerry will be featured on Dr. G website!!! Their progress. So proud of them both.

This afternoon

We worked out with our Trainer Zane, I am very grateful to Zane and all the care and patience he has for our family.
He really has helped the whole family. We had a very nice work out and it has inspired me to get more of a workout tomorrow. I plan to get the walking back up to 3 miles daily. I was feeling pretty poorly before the workout with my weight loss for the week. However Zane encouraged me and told me I was doing great.- Glad we had the workout today.

Things do change

Before the show

 Today, When you love someone you do not see they have a weight problem. (speaking of Jerry) We knew Patience was gaining because it was clear-  The Christmas photo was when patience was a normal weight for a two year old. And the bottom photo was when she started to put on the weight. Still cute, but we were starting to see changes. We had no idea the Fat free cookies and fat free foods were putting on weight for our baby girl. My other two children do not have a weight issue. I did what I did based on the knowledge I had. Taking her to doctor after doctor they kept telling me She will grow out of it. Feed her more carbs. The carbs was something her body could not process.

They had actually written in the doctor's reports Mother seems obessed with daughters weight. UH Yeah my daughter was gaining 10 pounds every month. In two years time she went from a normal weight to being almost 100 pounds.Like I said we did what we did based on the knowledge we had. Anytime I would suggest a no carb diet they would say NOOOOO!! I am so thankful for Dr.PHils help. Patience is still overweight however there are children just as big. And when I see those children eating the school food and their chips, and cookies I get upset.
I think to myself what if they never get help the way we did. What if they live a overweight life. It is one thing for the parents to be overweight but for a child it breaks my heart.

Feelings

In order for me to lose the weight I have to work through this grief. I am being honest. My faith has not shifted. And I know God did not give me a spirit of fear.I do not want to go to the doctor and have her tell me more bad news. I'm scared. I am thinking everything is going to be fine. But as I have learned this year your health can fail.  I am working out more it isn't easy.

I love this song, It has different meanings to different people for me it reminds me of how I felt hearing the news of the loss of the baby, hearing the health news. I wish so much I could have saved my daughters life.  My weight has went down two more pounds. I am not losing like Jerry- but I do the best I can. He works out more Trying though. With Gods help I will do this.

http://www.YouTube.com/watch?v=UksIFm8Ru6s

Feelings

I thought I would include my feelings - after all i would not have gained all the weight from the first loss of our daughter Star if I hadn't over ate.

Anyway....Lately I have been feeling like someone is around me telling me it's OK, this isn't a easy time but it's OK your going to get through this. Not sure if it is a guardian angel, my own feelings or what. Glad that i have those feelings. The girls have been watching the new chipmunk movie and this song is in there. They love the song. It fits perfectly to my feelings lately.

And also a beautiful red bird came to our Deck this morning!!!! Simplicity ran and Said Momma, momma look. Red birds have always brought me peace.-He flew away before i could snap the picture.
http://www.you tube.com/watch?v=LanCLS_hIo4

I found the prettiest bookmark in the girls room, just beautiful it has a little girl angel on it in a garden, curly hair. I had forgotten all about it, My mother have given it to Simplicity months ago. And at the bottom it reads:
We know that all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to his purpose. Romans 8:28

Food Diary

Today for Breakfast decided to juice it. The children had bought me a juicer for Mother's Day and I love it.
I feel like I should detox my system. The juice is simple:

Carrots, Celery and apples. I love the shakes but thought my system needed to heal and detox.
Going to take the girls to the park today or go swimming. Although I am not feeling well why punish them.
They and my son Kaplin are such a huge light in my life.- They are my miracles.

Peanut Butter Pie

Peanut Butter Pie

Jerry and Patience made this recipe together. Patience isn't shy, she was acting silly for the video. :)
http://www.smilebox.com/playBlog/4d5463794d6a55354d6a513d0d0a&blogview=true

Still here

Sticking to the healthy life plan, I plan to post more cooking videos soon. My exercise isn't what it should be I should be walking three miles daily at the least.- due to complications from the D and C I have not been doing that everyday. Not gaining but only lost two more pounds this week, not what i wanted.

I purchased a Electric Bike at a yard sale it will help for the days I have not been walking. I just want this after math of the loss to be over: trips to the doctor and more testing. Things are ok...just praying I do not receive more bad news at the doctor next week. Found out yesterday my hcg numbers are slow falling.

I am very thankful for our trainer and nutritionist who have been very patient with me.

This is a song my children and I have sung in the car before, acted silly to, and I have even made them laugh when they have had hard times- its just our song.
Although a very old song they always know when they hear it on a movie or on the radio. Thought I would post it to remind myself there are better times ahead. The health problem isnt forever. And I can do this.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0RY0uS6KPRc

Food Diary

This morning shake with almond butter in it and Banana taste and ice cubes taste just like A Reese butter cup. Loved it.
No guilt, felt full and a nice sweet treat.


Snack
Apple with 12 almonds

Lunch was
Chicken Marsala and Brussels Sprouts
And Sweet Potato Puree. 300 calories
The picture does not do this meal justice, very good meal.











Afternoon snack was a Banana

Dinner was Mahi Mahi, green beans and carrots.

That's it. Done eating for the day. Very good meal only 330 calories.

Feeling alittle tired, due to health reasons. Going to watch the Ghost Whisper and go to bed early.

Rest

OK I haven't been as loyal taking pictures, I have been feeling under the weather. Sticking to the plan though. I am recovering from a D and C. I recently had a loss. To be honest three years ago when I lost my daughter Star at 19 weeks that is really when i began to pile on the weight for myself. Instead of facing the grief i chose to eat.

But today is a new day and I do plan to have a Healthy pregnancy in the future.

For today though- is a new day And God has made all things new. Sticking to the healthy life style plan and working out. Trying to get back on track with health. I honestly believe I never would have even gotten pregnant if i hadn't lost the weight that i have so far.

These two really inspire me to press on. I am so proud of their weight loss. If a sweet little girl can do this why shouldnt I? Although last night I felt like i had been ran over by a truck- Patience said Momma I do the workouts- can you please do this for me Momma.- Who could tell her no. I love her so much.

Today was a busy day with the girls, I took them to see Diary of a Wimpy Kid,- not my choice, and afterwards we went to Target and they got them a Treat at Starbucks. With Patience I ask for everything Low-fat, they used soy in hers. That is not a everyday thing. Very few times do we spluge on "junk food.

She is doing very well keeping her weight stable. There are alot of times we just say no. She knew it was a special treat and we do not do this everyday. Like when we were at Walmarts the other day the Bakery lady ask her if she would like a cookie she said No Thank. Saying no to her is also reminding myself it is to save her life. Patience understands that she does not have a body like her sister's and what is ok for Simplicity could make her sick or make her put on the weight. Simplicity sees the family as a whole eating healthy so she is not asking for the junk either.

Food Diary

Shake for Breakfast, It honestly is enough.

And the shake is under the advice of the doctor this isnt a Fad diet. It is a lifestyle change. One thing i have learned if you do not work out you just maintain- no weight comes off.

For Snack- 12 Almonds and one apple

Lunch 1 Chicken Breast, 1 and half cups of beans, Green Beans and Carrots.

Looks like alot of food in the photo, When you are working out it is enough.

Snack - 1 Handful of popcorn- no extra butter at the movies.- no more than that. So proud of myself.

For Dinner

A Big Salad with a piece of Salmon- No cheese.

Fun day it was nice to get out of the house with the girls

Food Diary

Shake of Course with Frozen Banana, I become so full with the shake this morning I walked away and forgot about it. Jerry said are you going to drink this. :)

Snack- Apple and 12 almonds

Lunch was Turkey, mixed veggies squash, and pureed Broccoli.

Dinner was Salmon and mixed veggies.

Good day expect the fact I had abnormal test results so that requires more testing. The great thing is when i found this news out I did not come home and over eat. Things are going to be OK. - I also found out my sweet baby was a little girl. I am very glad I do not have to spend a lifetime wondering.- Bless her heart. She is very loved- as all of my children. Now that I know who this little person was it becomes very emotional for me.- I know she would want me to not give up. So I must keep trying. If it wasn't for her pregnancy I would have never known about the abnormal tests the other doctor never called me.

I have added this song because I heard it on my way to the doctors to the surgery when I had lost my daughter. In mind my I can see my two little girls in heaven dancing laughing and playing. This is what i believe the words she would say to me to have the strength to go on.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xIAWY4LLsEw

I have added the song below because it is so beautiful, I know it is for a daughter and father. And it doesnt relate to loss but I just know if this little girl was born Jerry and I would have had these feelings for her. I love this song. -  I have hope to still have another baby- Finding out it was alittle girl hurts my heart so when I look at my girls. I wonder if she had dimples and pretty curly hair. Some day I will know.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yt7z_qllu64

This picture was taken the day I found out I needed a D and C. It is a double rainbow- I just know my sweet girl sent it to me.