School time snack when a piece of fruit isnt like classmates

Pineapple,walnut, banana muffins or bread
3 eggs
1/2tsp of vaniila
2 cups of whole grain flour
1 tsp baking soda
1tsp of stevia
1- 20 ounce can of crushed pineapples
2 smushed banana

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SFDadxlFf5M

She was country

She left the suds in the bucket and the clothes hanging on the line

Another few pounds

Workout was yesterday the past week the weight loss was another 3 pounds. Slowly happening.

I told Zane our trainer yesterday, all the over eating and years of  strain  was not worth how i feel when working out..lol  We both laughed. When i do all the walking and working out the numbers are about  three to four pounds. - plus drinking the water. That pretty much means protein/veggies and fruit. No cheating. I'm ok with it.

We will now be doing low sugar recipes aimed to help children

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U_vOZx_mhG4

One of my favorite meals

I almost feel like I am cheating eating this meal, but Dr. G did say all veggies.

1 Portabella Mushroom Chopped

1 Half Red onion chopped

A couple Roma Tomato chopped

And a Couple Tbs of Olive oil

Just fry in a frying pan.

I add alittle garlic powder for seasoning and basil

I have a huge plate of veggies with no guilt :)

How to do the squat

I feel like i look silly doing these but we do these everyday with our workout. I really hope if they do footage of us on the return show I will not be doing these. Least of my favorite I would rather walk 5 miles than do the squat.
Our Dear Trainer Zane has been so patient with me he is not a Jillian. However on one of the last visits he said ok Tori we are done with the squats lets go on to something else. Then he said no lets do a few more. I laughed to myself because i think he knows how i hate them. Zane is wonderful trainer.

How to Do Crunches

In a millon years I never thought I would be doing these, my excuse was I have had surgery on my stomach. These are quite easy- and I know they help to rid me of the huge stomach Though I will never be 20 years old again with work I can be average and on the road to health.
Dr. G said it will take up to three months for your body to shrink to be the size it should be once you have reached your goal weight. For things to tighten.
Being a healthy average weight is great for me- knowing all the while i will never look like the video's :)

I am not aiming to be a size 2 - average size that is healthy will do. A size that my children can say I am proud of you Momma.- That is all i aiming for.

Feelings

Joy makes you Strong

Nehemiah 8:10

Be not grieved and depressed for the Lord is your strength and stronghold.

I read something the other day that made alot of sense, God knows our whole life from beginning to end, when struggling with loss or something hard in our life we can only see past our own nose. Gods knows everything. So finding joy in him gives strength. As human and christians we forget to lean on him. We are not alone.


Working out

I have been pushing myself to do all the exercise whether i feel like it or not. What a gift our family has received to have this help. Walking 3 and half miles daily, doing crunches,squats rows, exercise bike.

Drinking the eight bottles of water, shake for breakfast, fruit, protein veggie for lunch, and veggies for dinner.
What i have been doing for dinner is getting a large mushroom frying it in little olive oil, with Roma tomato's and red onions. Just as good as any steak and very filling. I have the option  of drinking a shake also but really trying to get the pounds off.

I love when i see the scale go down. - What a nice surprize After awhile the excerise becomes apart of your day you dont see it as a chore but a appericated time for yourself. There are times i will go for my 3 mile walk and after the children are settleing down for the evening i will take Bellla for another mile walk. After the sun is down.

Sky Diving

I have really always wanted to Sky Dive....but thinking I am going to chicken out once it is my turn.
I had asked Jerry the other day has he ever wanted to do that. He said yes.

Thinking....maybe after I have reached my goal weight we may just go do that. - or watch him anyway..LOL :) - he is pretty good about making me smile and laugh.

Birthday party

Patience had her 6th birthday party today, it was a very nice little party. We invited her Memaw and papa, and her two little friends in the neighborhood. Carly and Abby and their parents.

Her Brother Kaplin,

 Kaplin doesn't like his picture taken very much. Under the tough guy is a very sweet young man. I believe Kaplin doesn't like his picture taken to much because his Me maw took his picture so much when he was a baby...lol  Kaplin when he was small won second place in Most photogenic baby. :) He almost won a modeling contract and trip to New York... ( I am a proud Momma) On anyone else I wouldnt like the hair cut very much but your only a teen once it is just a phase. :)

Your only a teen once.

Patience and her Memaw and Papa, my parents

We purchased frozen yogurt and angel food cake with whip creamed icing. We really try to make things as "normal" for Patience as possible. It isnt easy, she makes me so proud- the other day when shopping at Walmart Simplicity wanted a snack of course it was chips....But Patience ran over to the produce and said Momma can i get this yummy looking salad.- So sweet. She trys so hard. And it is really working. She is now starting to tell me the numbers on the back of the labels. Of  how much sugar something has in it. Although she is still overweight- it feels wonderful to shop for her. We do not have to go to the ladies dept this year to try and make a dress for her birthday. :) Last year I went to the ladies and bought a Taylor Swift long shirt and we made a dress out of it. Of course she was as beautiful as ever to me. But she could not understand why she had to do that. This year in the school year she will actually be able to wear jeans. Real jeans instead of cotton leggings.

Here is one of her favorite songs

It's my party they sing in on Alvin and the chipmunks.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6JGQUEnpTkw

She cracks me up when she sings this song :) She knows all the words and does the dramtics of course :)

This photo reminds me of the song....Paitence and sad face :) She had a fun time and still winding down for the night laying on her bed playing her Leaspter2- She wanted a Ds but Simplicity has one we wanted to see how she would do with this and let Santa bring her a Ds. She is happy. :)

Can the years go by slower, ahhh my baby is growing up sooo fast. - The party felt good but couldnt help to be reminded of the little girl i lost recently- this would be the month of the big ultra sound. Very greatful for all of my children but as always remembering the ones that are my angels. Sometimes it doesnt seem real when I go by the baby section. Just to think there could have been twins. I was given twins and lost them. I found myself the other day picking up a baby outfit and remebering my little one. But then quickly walking away and focused on shopping for the girls. God has blessed me so many times who to say he wont again. And I go on to have a healthy pregnancy.- Still struggling with the grief on holdiays and events.

My Sweet girl :)- Rembering the day she was born the first time i seen her - she had very light eye brows. And I said Oh Jerry where are her eyebrows....Lol.

Something to do besides eating

OK....I am not a craft er, let me say that. Or not a professional hair bow maker. But for fun I do make my daughters hair bows.

Real hair bow artists sew their bows I just hot glue mine. I wanted to share with you a simple hair bow i do.

for my girls

Step one Fold your ribbon in half. I always burn the edges do they do not fray. I love getting the big polka dotted ribbons and holiday ribbons..

Step 2 where you folded your ribbon the crease your going to take the first half and bring to the crease. If i can do this a
anyone can :)

Step there take the other half and bring to the center by there it is going to look like the Cancer awareness ribbons similar to a figure 8. Remember i Hot glued mine so you hot glue with every step.

I have hot glued the center of each middle of the where my crease is.

After this is done I usually add a silk flower, or Letters Like a P for Patience, the iron on letters  or I add a fancy button.
Then I hot glue the clip on the back.

I hope to start making the bows with little Palmer clay figures like cupcakes

Since my Simplicity is almost 12 she doesnt wear the bows much, only on Holidays. Or something fun.

Patience is a good sport about it and always says ohhh Momma you made me a new bow.

I love love love my girls sooo much.

Feelings

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zB2gPZRsz0Q

I loved Toy Story 3, although I cried cried cried a good part of the movie. My oldest child Kaplin was a toddler when the movie came out. So the little boy in the movie was 17 also. Kaplin will not be 17 until January.
Oh my goodness my son melts my heart- It is amazing watching him grow into a young man but boy i miss my little boy :)
I am learning the need for wanting to protect your children does not stop when they are a baby. Kaplin will be driving himself to school in October-- and I am so scared for him out there on the road. My baby will be going out with friends and just acting  like a grown up. I miss my little boy- when i could keep him safe inside on the couch in his Toy story slippers watching Toy Story on tape. :) But growing up happens. I have so much love for my son Kaplin.

Food Diary

Shake for Breakfast
With a Banana in the shake.

Apple for Morning snack

Lunch Grilled Chicken breast, grilled veggies and Salad.- Protein and veggies for lunch


Dinner - Shake, I was supposed to eat veggies with the shake but not very hungry tonight.
After the shake i will go for my three mile walk, Did the usual workout this morning, excerise bike, crunches, squats, and rows

Drinking the 8 bottles of water and playing with the kids outside as much as possible. (jumping on trampoline, playing ball)

Food Diary

Shake for Breakfast,
Apple for morning snack

Lunch Chicken with mixed veggies, and creamed Broccoli

Dinner Salad : Red leaf lettuce, red onions, cucumber, Tomato, and home made salad dressing And one piece of Baked Salmon.

And 8 bottles of water, 5 pound weight loss this week.  Hopefully on the right track.

On the fourth I did eat some angel food cake. Dr. G said that was approved sweet treat for Patience every now and then. She actually said it was tooo sweet for her- even though it was sugar free. And ate a big piece of watermelon instead.

Feelings

Today was The Estimated Due Date of My daughter Star. Fourth of July has been a hard holiday for me three years now. We had a nice day together with the children and my Parents. Jerry and I went shopping for Patience birthday gift her birthday is next week. I so wish I would have been shopping for two girls in July.

We have purchased Patience a Leapster2 and plan to get her a groovy girl and new pj's.

And a trip to Chuck E Cheese. Patience insists that we have sparklers on her birthday since her birthday is in JULY.  She wil be 6 years old soon.

This song is  to my Daughter Star. Momma and daddy will always love YOU. But know your in a beautiful place above the rainbows. And there is no doubt I will hold you one day in heaven.http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZL7Caq1UJ2Y

Momma loves you

Food Diary

Shake for Breakfast with Banana

Snack

1 apple

Lunch 3 oz of Turkey, and a salad Romaine lettuce

Tomatoes, celery, red onions, and 1 egg and 2 Tablespoon of homemade dressing

snack

3 large celery sticks with a Tablespoon of  Almond butter

Evening snack

1 Tomato

Dinner- we worked out tonight With Zane so I really wasn't that hungry I drank a shake.

8 water bottles of water and 1 vitamin water.

Awww that phone call is over

Dr. G is just awesome, He understood. He said it is normal and gave me a new food plan.

Breakfast
Shake with fruit

Morning Snack
One fruit

Lunch
Protein and veggies

Afternoon Snack
Veggie with a scoop of Almond butter
Evening snack- 1 Tomato

Dinner
Veggies and a shake one night and on alternate nights protein and veggies

This is the plan that Jerry has been doing, so glad Dr. G encouraged me and knew about Hormones (he is a doctor also) We could not ask for a better Nutritionist.- Such a Blessing
Basically with the new plan i am cutting out the starches and eating veggie,protein,fruit.
All nature's food except the shake, I love the shake ( my sweet treat)

Tuesday we go work out with the Trainer Zane.

Food Diary and more

What can I say? It's been two weeks from the last weigh- in and although I have been working out faithfully and eating the meal plan my weight loss this morning was only another 2 pounds.
We speak to Dr. G today. I believe my weight loss right now is contributed to hormones being out of place. Anyway today is a new day and I began taking pictures and working out even more!!!

He said the last time we spoke my plan will change. The weight loss has nothing to do with the food plan it has to do with my hormones right now. All I can do is keep trying.  I will probably be put in food jail which is fine with me. I want to lose more than just two pounds.

I feel like on the biggest loser when they go to weigh and they have gained instead of lost. Even though i know they work hard on that show- I always think to myself What is the problem, you have help doing this. I guess all i can do keep trying and work harder. Rome wasn't built in a day.

Jerry weighed this morning and he is 188!!!  That is 320 down to 188, SO proud of him.
Without sounding jealous I am very proud of him and i know he works hard. But I am not understanding the reason it is taking me so long.


This past weekend Patience girl scout troop went to the zoo And Build a bear. Jerry, simplicity and me joined them. And we also ate at the mall- it becomes less of a struggle with Patience she now calls McDonald's yucky food.- They do offer salads though. Although her friends in the girl scout troop all ate separate food from different places I noticed she ate most healthiest. There will be times in her life we will be faced with situations where a group is eating at McDonald's, Pizza hut etc. And with the new food skills she knows to ask for grilled chicken,turkey, veggies etc. We all ate at subway.- it was the best the Mall offered and couldn't very well say no thanks, she will not be eating. Simplicity or kaplin could very well eat at McDonald's- and not gain weight. But for Patience it isn't possible. So as a family we try to all eat at the same place. The one thing I am really guilty about is observing what others eat and making a comment to Jerry Patience will pick up on that and say to her friends that is not a very good food choice!!! (so I need to be careful of being a food snob)

I thought it was funny the girls all picked the same animal, I had wished Patience would have gotten a adorable bunny. But she wanted to be like her friends. She named her doggie Lilly. She names all of her baby dolls lilly right now.

Patience and her girl scout troop and Leader Jodi.

She really cares about her friends. And lets us know every other week when her meetings are if she misses a meeting she doesn't like it.

Today I had

Shake and Banana for breakfast

Lunch

Grilled chicken, and couscous -390 calories

Snack

1 hard boiled egg

Dinner

 Large Salad

Lettuce,red onions, tomatoes, 1 egg, a few soy bacon chips,cucumbers

and homemade salad dressing- very little- made with yogurt

I cut back today with my fruit snacks. And I drank 8 water bottles.

Photo Of Jerry his pant size was once 50. Now 38 :)

Feelings

I am a very blessed person, I know that and honestly not trying to sound like a sad person.
This time around with my loss Holidays are hard for me. This morning I woke up and said Oh Great its fathers day. Almost like I was mad at the Holiday for being here. They had a church breakfast I decided to stay home on this Holiday.- I do not like missing church- but knew the sermon would be cut short and basically did not feel like socializing.
Maybe a holiday is a reminder of how things could have been. Jerry understood about not going to the church breakfast- (we wouldn't be eating anything anyway)
Today we are going to have a relaxing day at home and go see my Mom and dad this afternoon.
Being still sometimes- can be OK to i guess.

Food Diary

Yummy Shake, 1 scoop of Almond butter, a few ice cubes and a apple inside the shake.

Morning Snack Banana with 12 almonds

Chicken with yogurt sauce, Spinach, and Lentils. This meal was 400 Calories.

Dinner was mostly veggies - Big salad Lettuce, Tomatoes, red onions, 1egg, a few chickpeas.

And homemade salad dressing. Very low fat meal.- We always have the dark leaf lettuce for salads. This week it will probably be veggies every night without the fish.

 I really want to start making the numbers drop. Dr. G said we can have a shake with veggies. The shake really is the protein. I didn't have the shake tonight the salad was plenty.

It is amazing how eating veggies can make you feel like you have had enough. And if you think about it Fruit and veggies are beautiful. The colors are so vibrant. Just to think each veggie and fruit can cure different ailments in your body and give the vitamins needed. The other day Patience and Simplicity had a huge plate of watermelon as a treat. I explained to Patience if she had eaten a snack cake she would have been hungry faster.- See how much wonderful watermelon you can eat. She loved it.

Getting ready to go for nightly walk- was a nice day with family.