New Food Plan for the week

Breakfast- Shake
Snack- Tomatoe
Lunch- Protein with veggie
Snack- Veggie and egg
Dinner- Protein/veggie then alternate nights with the other plan for dinner being shake with veggie

Patience new school year

School shopping for Patience this year was alot easier, Of course we take her lunch. And one of the rewards in her class is a piece of candy for good behavior!!!!

So i have sent her stickers to be given and a piece of sugar-free candy for birthdays. I plan to give the Dr. a copy of the terrible school lunches.

And another thing- out goes the vitamin water- crystilling fructose which eventually causes liver problems. :( So water, water it is.

We are learning - this just isnt about the weight its about a lifestyle.

For Myself
One day at a time- Following the food plan, And trying to remind myself not everyone will be given a chance to have help. I missed the workout last week due to feeling under the weather- but I had Jerry call Zane and tell him I will be there next week.
Zane of course said, Tori's health is more important than any workout- this is about total health.- Anyway- no matter how much it hurts to do the walks I refuse to give in or give up.
If the subject comes up of how I had gained the weight, I am sure I will say because of my loss of my daughter Star. Hopefully the show will focus on Patience's success, She is doing so well - she and Jerry both inspire me everyday. :)
Their clothes from last year are being tossed in the garabage :) way to big for them. Jerry can now wear Kaplin's clothes and smaller. 34/36 When last year he was size 50!!!! Patience can now share some of Simplicitys clothing when last year she wore women's clothing.

Also I wanted to add a photo of my son Kaplin and his best friend these days, his cell phone!!!!

I am trying to get used to the idea, a teen has their own mind and my baby boy is almost considered a grown up.- I'm not ready for all this but do I have a choice?

Food Plan for the week

Breakfast- shake with piece of fruit, and a few ice cubes

Morning snack-Veggies with almond butter

Lunch- Protein/veggies no startch

snack- two eggs with veggie

snack fruit with almond butter

Dinner- Protein veggies, and alternate nights veggie with shake

Seems like alot of food, but it works- and 8 bottles of water in the day.

Without sounding discouraging.

This blog is about real life, yesterday i found out I tested postitive for a horrible auto immune disease in which there is no cure.
It expalins the reason i have lost 3 babies. And the reason my health has went down hill.
Going to the primary care doctor this morning to get a referal, I am scared. The disease can change your life.

What can i say i am in shock.
Will post more later with new diet plan for the week.

I ordered a new cook book

I ordered the cookbook deceptively Delicious by Jessica Seinfeld. Very excited. The book shows clever ways of adding veggies to your child's diet. With Simplicity that is much needed. So that means more healthy recipes coming up for snacks. I understand that beet and black bean brownies may not sound good. However people have said you will not notice. Cannot wait to use my new food processor to make these recipes. Pictures and recipes to come.

This evening we go to Patience's first grade orientation, Tomorrow a endo appointment for Patience and this afternoon we speak to Dr. G over the phone. Looks like a busy week. And Friday is the first day of school.
I have been super cleaning and this weekend plan to do some chopping and freezing for the busy school weeks ahead.
Lets face it when children are back in school you have homework, appointments, and busy days and it is very easy to fall into the quick snack that isn't so good for your family. Jerry and I are really trying to make things as good for the kids as possible in their nutrition choices.
It feels so wonderful for the girls to go to the market and say Momma can we have some of these strawberries or cherries. Instead of momma can we have some chips and dips.
Every now and then we will make a nice homemade dip for them with pita chips or air popped popcorn with our own seasonings.

I have a Cabbage patch kid

My dad made a interesting point, Patience looks Little like a cabbage patch kid. We made a trip to visit my parents and he asked  if I remembered the dolls that i had when i was little with pony tails- I said yeah sure my cabbage patch dolls. He said Patience reminded him of one. I always would pick a cabbage patch with dimples and curly hair.

Over the summer, Patience

Moving along

Spoke with the doctor yesterday, New food plan


Breakfast - shake with banana
snack- tomato
Lunch- veggie and protein  ( chicken breast for protein)
snacck -veggie and almond butter
evening snack- veggie and egg
Dinner- veggie and shake

Seems like alot of food. Basically kind of like what I was doing but replacing veggies with the fruit that i was eating.

My feelings- just want to lose all the weight and go on to the show. Sometimes alittle sad about the loss of the babies. But encouraged to press on. Losing the weight takes my mind off of the grief but does not fully heal my heart. When we go back to Hollywood i will not be pregnant. I had so hoped having a success story with my rainbow baby. But that isnt going to happen just yet. I guess it is meant to be I lose the weight first.

School time snack when a piece of fruit isnt like classmates

Pineapple,walnut, banana muffins or bread
3 eggs
1/2tsp of vaniila
2 cups of whole grain flour
1 tsp baking soda
1tsp of stevia
1- 20 ounce can of crushed pineapples
2 smushed banana

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SFDadxlFf5M

She was country

She left the suds in the bucket and the clothes hanging on the line

Another few pounds

Workout was yesterday the past week the weight loss was another 3 pounds. Slowly happening.

I told Zane our trainer yesterday, all the over eating and years of  strain  was not worth how i feel when working out..lol  We both laughed. When i do all the walking and working out the numbers are about  three to four pounds. - plus drinking the water. That pretty much means protein/veggies and fruit. No cheating. I'm ok with it.

We will now be doing low sugar recipes aimed to help children

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U_vOZx_mhG4

One of my favorite meals

I almost feel like I am cheating eating this meal, but Dr. G did say all veggies.

1 Portabella Mushroom Chopped

1 Half Red onion chopped

A couple Roma Tomato chopped

And a Couple Tbs of Olive oil

Just fry in a frying pan.

I add alittle garlic powder for seasoning and basil

I have a huge plate of veggies with no guilt :)

How to do the squat

I feel like i look silly doing these but we do these everyday with our workout. I really hope if they do footage of us on the return show I will not be doing these. Least of my favorite I would rather walk 5 miles than do the squat.
Our Dear Trainer Zane has been so patient with me he is not a Jillian. However on one of the last visits he said ok Tori we are done with the squats lets go on to something else. Then he said no lets do a few more. I laughed to myself because i think he knows how i hate them. Zane is wonderful trainer.

How to Do Crunches

In a millon years I never thought I would be doing these, my excuse was I have had surgery on my stomach. These are quite easy- and I know they help to rid me of the huge stomach Though I will never be 20 years old again with work I can be average and on the road to health.
Dr. G said it will take up to three months for your body to shrink to be the size it should be once you have reached your goal weight. For things to tighten.
Being a healthy average weight is great for me- knowing all the while i will never look like the video's :)

I am not aiming to be a size 2 - average size that is healthy will do. A size that my children can say I am proud of you Momma.- That is all i aiming for.

Feelings

Joy makes you Strong

Nehemiah 8:10

Be not grieved and depressed for the Lord is your strength and stronghold.

I read something the other day that made alot of sense, God knows our whole life from beginning to end, when struggling with loss or something hard in our life we can only see past our own nose. Gods knows everything. So finding joy in him gives strength. As human and christians we forget to lean on him. We are not alone.


Working out

I have been pushing myself to do all the exercise whether i feel like it or not. What a gift our family has received to have this help. Walking 3 and half miles daily, doing crunches,squats rows, exercise bike.

Drinking the eight bottles of water, shake for breakfast, fruit, protein veggie for lunch, and veggies for dinner.
What i have been doing for dinner is getting a large mushroom frying it in little olive oil, with Roma tomato's and red onions. Just as good as any steak and very filling. I have the option  of drinking a shake also but really trying to get the pounds off.

I love when i see the scale go down. - What a nice surprize After awhile the excerise becomes apart of your day you dont see it as a chore but a appericated time for yourself. There are times i will go for my 3 mile walk and after the children are settleing down for the evening i will take Bellla for another mile walk. After the sun is down.

Sky Diving

I have really always wanted to Sky Dive....but thinking I am going to chicken out once it is my turn.
I had asked Jerry the other day has he ever wanted to do that. He said yes.

Thinking....maybe after I have reached my goal weight we may just go do that. - or watch him anyway..LOL :) - he is pretty good about making me smile and laugh.

Birthday party

Patience had her 6th birthday party today, it was a very nice little party. We invited her Memaw and papa, and her two little friends in the neighborhood. Carly and Abby and their parents.

Her Brother Kaplin,

 Kaplin doesn't like his picture taken very much. Under the tough guy is a very sweet young man. I believe Kaplin doesn't like his picture taken to much because his Me maw took his picture so much when he was a baby...lol  Kaplin when he was small won second place in Most photogenic baby. :) He almost won a modeling contract and trip to New York... ( I am a proud Momma) On anyone else I wouldnt like the hair cut very much but your only a teen once it is just a phase. :)

Your only a teen once.

Patience and her Memaw and Papa, my parents

We purchased frozen yogurt and angel food cake with whip creamed icing. We really try to make things as "normal" for Patience as possible. It isnt easy, she makes me so proud- the other day when shopping at Walmart Simplicity wanted a snack of course it was chips....But Patience ran over to the produce and said Momma can i get this yummy looking salad.- So sweet. She trys so hard. And it is really working. She is now starting to tell me the numbers on the back of the labels. Of  how much sugar something has in it. Although she is still overweight- it feels wonderful to shop for her. We do not have to go to the ladies dept this year to try and make a dress for her birthday. :) Last year I went to the ladies and bought a Taylor Swift long shirt and we made a dress out of it. Of course she was as beautiful as ever to me. But she could not understand why she had to do that. This year in the school year she will actually be able to wear jeans. Real jeans instead of cotton leggings.

Here is one of her favorite songs

It's my party they sing in on Alvin and the chipmunks.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6JGQUEnpTkw

She cracks me up when she sings this song :) She knows all the words and does the dramtics of course :)

This photo reminds me of the song....Paitence and sad face :) She had a fun time and still winding down for the night laying on her bed playing her Leaspter2- She wanted a Ds but Simplicity has one we wanted to see how she would do with this and let Santa bring her a Ds. She is happy. :)

Can the years go by slower, ahhh my baby is growing up sooo fast. - The party felt good but couldnt help to be reminded of the little girl i lost recently- this would be the month of the big ultra sound. Very greatful for all of my children but as always remembering the ones that are my angels. Sometimes it doesnt seem real when I go by the baby section. Just to think there could have been twins. I was given twins and lost them. I found myself the other day picking up a baby outfit and remebering my little one. But then quickly walking away and focused on shopping for the girls. God has blessed me so many times who to say he wont again. And I go on to have a healthy pregnancy.- Still struggling with the grief on holdiays and events.

My Sweet girl :)- Rembering the day she was born the first time i seen her - she had very light eye brows. And I said Oh Jerry where are her eyebrows....Lol.

Something to do besides eating

OK....I am not a craft er, let me say that. Or not a professional hair bow maker. But for fun I do make my daughters hair bows.

Real hair bow artists sew their bows I just hot glue mine. I wanted to share with you a simple hair bow i do.

for my girls

Step one Fold your ribbon in half. I always burn the edges do they do not fray. I love getting the big polka dotted ribbons and holiday ribbons..

Step 2 where you folded your ribbon the crease your going to take the first half and bring to the crease. If i can do this a
anyone can :)

Step there take the other half and bring to the center by there it is going to look like the Cancer awareness ribbons similar to a figure 8. Remember i Hot glued mine so you hot glue with every step.

I have hot glued the center of each middle of the where my crease is.

After this is done I usually add a silk flower, or Letters Like a P for Patience, the iron on letters  or I add a fancy button.
Then I hot glue the clip on the back.

I hope to start making the bows with little Palmer clay figures like cupcakes

Since my Simplicity is almost 12 she doesnt wear the bows much, only on Holidays. Or something fun.

Patience is a good sport about it and always says ohhh Momma you made me a new bow.

I love love love my girls sooo much.

Feelings

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zB2gPZRsz0Q

I loved Toy Story 3, although I cried cried cried a good part of the movie. My oldest child Kaplin was a toddler when the movie came out. So the little boy in the movie was 17 also. Kaplin will not be 17 until January.
Oh my goodness my son melts my heart- It is amazing watching him grow into a young man but boy i miss my little boy :)
I am learning the need for wanting to protect your children does not stop when they are a baby. Kaplin will be driving himself to school in October-- and I am so scared for him out there on the road. My baby will be going out with friends and just acting  like a grown up. I miss my little boy- when i could keep him safe inside on the couch in his Toy story slippers watching Toy Story on tape. :) But growing up happens. I have so much love for my son Kaplin.